Tougher Skin

Spending years trying to prove myself as someone with “tough” skin actually made me weaker.
I found myself in relationships with all kinds of fantastic assholes.

People who kept telling me to toughen up,
Take it on the chin,
Stand up and fight.

And sure, now I know how to do that. But my faith in humanity is also severely compromised, by getting embroiled in bizarre situations that I should have never even known about.

The only thing I’ve succeeded in doing is traumatizing the hell out of myself.

When, if only I would’ve listened to the beat of my own heart,

I would have walked away from selfish people,
To find a home with the right ones who wanted instead to show me kindness much, much earlier.

You might say; well, now you know how to fight, but I also learned how to abandon my faith and my love.
How to shut myself off from people,
How to be even more vindictive and deadly than my teachers,
How to win a fight my opponent doesn’t even know they’re in yet,

And now I have to have to negotiate with an angel and an assassin before I even start my day. Thank God, that I still choose angels. Mostly 😉

Be mindful of yourself. You never know if bullying someone will teach them to bend to your will,
or if they will learn how to be a wicked headache the whole world has to solve the next day.

Be Kind. Be easy.

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